Coming Home

Time passes so quickly. In the blink of an eye the newborn you brought home from the hospital is celebrating his first birthday. In another blink of an eye and that child is off to kindergarten. Some stages seem like they last forever but years down the road you look back and realize how quickly […]

Not the same

Sunday marked 9 months since Ben’s death. In those 9 months so many things have changed. Change is inevitable. Life doesn’t ever stay the same for very long. As much as we want things to stay the same, they can’t and they don’t. We have an expectation that certain things will change over time. Children […]

Remembrance stones

Quite often when Ben and I would go somewhere I would try to find a rock or two to bring back home with us. This was especially true when we would go to Pleasant Valley Bible Camp. Ben always humored me in my collection of rocks. Though I suspect he thought I was a bit […]

The future

Have you ever thought about the future and suddenly had a glimpse of what your future might look like? That is what happened to me Sunday afternoon. I had dropped Sabin off at Calvin University for a soccer camp. I came home and laid on the couch and took a nap. When I woke up, […]

Trust

One of the goals I set for myself this year is to read through the entire Bible in 2022. Sadly I haven’t done that since I was in college when it was required as part of my classes. I have been able to keep up with it and when I have fallen behind a few […]

Changes

It has been three weeks since my last blog post. Life just keeps marching on. The days pass quickly. In those three weeks school ended for the year, soccer season concluded, soccer tryouts for next year took place and all the regular stuff happened–work, school, church, etc. Summer brings a welcome relief from school for […]

Forever

It has now been seven months since Ben died. It is just as hard today as it was seven months ago. It is different but still hard. If crying counted as exercise and could give you six pack abs, I would certainly have a very toned mid section. If someone had told me seven months […]

A winding path

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,    neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.“As the heavens are higher than the earth,    so are my ways higher than your ways    and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9 The last week or two has been particularly hard for me. There have been so many times that the […]

Exhaustion

Have you ever been completely exhausted and spent? You somehow manage to keep on going but most everything is a struggle and wears you out. That is where I am at right now. I am exhausted. Life is hard. It is even harder when you are grieving. Harder yet when you are left to pick […]

Light and momentary?

“For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.” II Corinthians 4:17. Some things that happen in life sure don’t feel like light and momentary troubles. The death of a spouse is definitely one of them. There is nothing light and nothing momentary about it. The […]