For the Love of Ben

It has been three weeks since my last blog post. Life just keeps marching on. The days pass quickly. In those three weeks school ended for the year, soccer season concluded, soccer tryouts for next year took place and all the regular stuff happened–work, school, church, etc. Summer brings a welcome relief from school for […]

It has now been seven months since Ben died. It is just as hard today as it was seven months ago. It is different but still hard. If crying counted as exercise and could give you six pack abs, I would certainly have a very toned mid section. If someone had told me seven months […]

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,    neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.“As the heavens are higher than the earth,    so are my ways higher than your ways    and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9 The last week or two has been particularly hard for me. There have been so many times that the […]

Have you ever been completely exhausted and spent? You somehow manage to keep on going but most everything is a struggle and wears you out. That is where I am at right now. I am exhausted. Life is hard. It is even harder when you are grieving. Harder yet when you are left to pick […]

“For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.” II Corinthians 4:17. Some things that happen in life sure don’t feel like light and momentary troubles. The death of a spouse is definitely one of them. There is nothing light and nothing momentary about it. The […]

This past Sunday was Palm Sunday. That day marks the day that Jesus rode into Jerusalem on the back of a donkey and the people shouted Hosanna and threw palm branches on the path ahead of him. It marks the beginning of Holy Week. It is a very important time of reflection and celebration for […]

Somehow 5 months have already passed since Ben left this earth and entered the gates of heaven. In some ways it feels like it was just yesterday and other ways it seems like it was a lifetime ago. Sabin and I have managed to muddle through the last 5 months without Ben. People often ask […]

Yesterday I gathered with family that I haven’t seen in many years to mourn the death and celebrate the life of my Aunt Sharon. Her death leaves my mom as the last of her 4 siblings. Cancer took each of her 3 siblings from this earth. It is sad that this was the first time […]

Sometimes the week flies by and other times it creeps by slowly. But that is how it has seemed to be the last 21 years. I think many pregnant women would say that waiting for baby to arrive seems to take forever. Then once baby comes, time seems to speed up and fly by. Although […]

“God is good” are the last words that Ben ever said to me this side of heaven. Before he was put on the ventilator we had a few moments together to give each other hugs and say good-bye for a few weeks. When I walked out of his hospital room that afternoon to allow the […]